Gosh. Life couldn't be more stressful. I thought I was over somebody, but turns out I havent forgoten him. It's strange, all this time I didnt give him a simple thought, but then someone asked me: are you really over him? and I said: "Yes, of course", but then that person made an "I dont believe you" face and told me: "I dont think so.. look at you, when I mentioned him you expression changed and your eyes lighted up" I didn't say anything after that.. but it made me think!
Today I checked some of his pictures on facebook.. and with those pictures I discovered that his house and the way he acts at home and thinks about being at home is very similar or maybe the same as mine. And that made me feel happy and excited (oh no!).
Maybe I just have to face that I still like him (gosh.. at the same time I'm writing this words I feel something strange in my heart, and my breathing is starting to have some difficulties..) but not in the same way as I did before. Maybe now I have no hope about being with him, and I just love him taking my distance, because I remember I used to be so happy and cheerful when in blind love with him. Sometimes I wish I could get back to those times, but in the other hand, I thank things are like this because getting away from him was the best thing to do. I know he may had liked me at one point, but he wouldn't do anything about it; so we were done as we started: a little less than friends.
I just want to find somebody that makes me happy and makes me forget him, because he was the only boy I had (or have) really liked so far... he was just what I was looking for.